Have you heard that we have personal seasons, that you can literally compare them with summer, spring, autumn and winter?

Since I arrived in BSSM, I became more and more aware of how real this can be. So, June we arrived in Germany and God said to me ‘Amanda, I want you to take care of Leticia and take care of this little garden’, there is this little space outside of our apartment that I just love.

If you follow me in social media, maybe you have seen me posting a bit about it. I’ve been experiencing many things with the Lord when I’m at the garden, He speaks and teaches me all the time.

Well, we’ve arrived at the end of spring and we catch all the summer here and during this season I could get to know this garden. Leticia, Alex and I had times there, we played, enjoyed. I also took a time to learn how to clean it. Discovered some treasures and some interesting things, I may be speaking in the future, but the reason why this have everything about season, the garden and I is… Cause we have been aligned with what’s going on around.

I’ve arrived here in my own summer, when I was experiencing the joy of what God has done in the season of BSSM 3, actually in the three years I was there He completely changed my life. But, I was so involved in wanting to give it back to Him that I didn’t really realize that He said that I should only take care of Leticia and the garden.

I start to step in some places I thought were opportunities from Him and at the beginning all was going fine, even when I was realizing it started being too much for me. I never been with the pace slow in my life, cause I’m a working machine. I literally love to work and make things happen, see they coming out of the paper and becoming visible to the eyes. But, this is just not what I’m capable in this season.

So, I put my summer in front of the advice of God and for sure, at some point everything fall. When I notice that the garden in the winter becomes a bit different. Ok, very much different. You can’t really do much specially when the real winter comes and here I’m speaking about German winter, which I’m experiencing for the first time and with the challenge of being in a lockdown, if you don’t know this week we woke up with -14° Celsius.

Well, here comes the beautiful part of God being who He is, right now after realizing and processing many things and changing the way I was going to, there is literally nothing I can do, but take care of Leticia and look what God is doing in this garden, which is a beautiful metaphor for what He is doing inside me.

This is the most cold (bones cold), life winter I’ve ever had. It is suffocating how cold it is and how strange is this season. Well, but if you don’t know me, here is a glimpse of me:

I love my life and I love to live. I believe this is one the most beautiful gift from God, the opportunity to live. I also love to see the good everywhere, even when I can see what is ugly I can find a way for the beauty.

My little tree outside is so empty and so am I, cause this is the season I’m allowing God to come with His winter, cause this is the time where I will make more efforts to stay alive, to stay close to Him.

I can’t say that I love this winter, I don’t. Although I’m learning to embrace and be thankful fot it, if it wasn’t for this season, I will not grow as I’m. His kindness is so beautiful over me that He gave me a red light ‘Ok, my daughter. You came until here, but now it’s time to understand what I said’. Thank God, He never changes!

In the winter, nobody can see who you really are. They can only see when they come closer, when they understand of your nature and understand what the winter causes you. You will not die, actually you will grow like never before, but it will be in some areas nobody can see. It’s only you and God.

In one of my encounters with God, there was a very strong winter and I’ve asked why does the seasons exist and an angel of the Lord said to me ‘it is like that, so you will not die’. We need the winter to be ready for spring.

Where are you right now? Which season are you right now?

I wrote it cause I believe you could feel encouraged, there is a purpose for everything and it’s everything about Jesus. This season will end soon and you will become stronger and closer to God, it is up to you to decide what to do with your season, but I really encourage you to live them with Jesus. You are not alone, even when it seems to be.

Also, I’m ready to the spring. I think this will be the spring I will most enjoy it, just saying. It is okay to be looking towards this goal!

All the love and blessings,

Amanda Stein.