I was born in 1987, in Hamburg, in a Christian family, from both sides. Mom and dad come from conservative Christian families. Since I’m a child we are part of the ELIM church in Hamburg, and my family was always intense in their faith and walk with God.

Even though, sometimes is not because you born in a Christian family that all the things will be easy, or you will know Jesus for the first beginning of your life. At the age of five I was already called a small rebel, not because I was a real reckless, but because I will always question the meaning or intentions of every act. So, when they ask us to stand up to worship I will be the one that will ask “Why we need to get up if we can worship seated?”.

For some people, I was the little problem boy, for myself I was trying to see the meaning in all those things that I couldn’t really understand. I didn’t want to do something just to do, I need to have a real reason for that. So, the same happens at kindergarden and school, sometimes it could create some social problems to me. Nevertheless, I have always find a way in all that mess,  that the people found me sweet and might, because I love to be funny and treat most of the people with love.

At this age, I also lost my best friend, D. unfortunately he died after he fall from a tree. This situation give me other reason to don’t understand God, for everyone was always saying that he is good, but what is this God is doing good in my life when takes away the life of my best friend, he was just 5 years old. My lack of understanding and my youth mind calculate this as a non good God.

Some years past, at the elementary school I start to fight with a guy. My problem with him was simple: he loved to hit girls and my teacher. I was tired to watch that and I try to resolve by myself, just fighting with him. I cause me some problems, of course, but I didn’t know other way to expose my believes, I couldn’t see that happening and I wasn’t able to express my disagreement with that situation. To help me through handle my stuff better, they encourage me with sports and sign me in different activities.

If I was not the real “problem guy” between my 10 and 15th years old I started to be. I believed that I was a rebel, and the lack of love inside of me guide to a way where for real there was no love.  At school, I quickly made friends with a group of older kids who introduced me to another universe. I, who always felt a “fish out of water” and completely misunderstood, was at first time seen, felling really accepted in a group. The problem is that at this time studying was no longer the focus, the time at school was to observe girls, to consume drugs or alcohol.

Soon I was also involved in selling drugs, fighting in the corridors on behalf of colleagues who were owed. But, did not stop here, my group and I also went through major problems with local traffickers.

I was almost 14 when finally, for the first time, I had an encounter and give my life to Jesus. It happened in 2002, when my sister and her friend invited me to the Youth Alive Internationally, in Rimini, Italy. With a lot of insistence and the promise that I will meet a lot of girls (that was the only way they found to catch me up), I surrendered to go. Of course the “bad boy” needed to call attention and I give a lot of problems for one certain guy. But, he didn’t retaliate me doesn’t matter what I tried to do with him, he actually was strong enough to say in my face that he will not respond me in the way I was trying to do.

After days of disorders my heart was touched and I could feel loved for the first very time. I can’t describe my feelings in that day, I just can say that in that moment my life start to change.

After this youth camp I went home totally changed, I clean up my bedroom from drugs and weapons (yes, I was really involved even with that age), and everybody could see how much God touched me to change my life. At school I was normally noticed as a guy who make problems, my notes was very worst, but after my encounter with God, I was the guy who was reading his bible and listening worship all of the time and I shifted to one of the best students. I was able to share my full testimony in front of the class.

My Christian life grows daily, my mentors impacted me a lot and I was so hungry for more of the Holy Spirit. I experienced crazy stuffs in the walk with him.

But, every walk has your stumbling, and I also had mine. It starts when I didn’t agree with somethings happening in my house that touched the way I was seen in my church, with later will culminate in the divorce of my parents. So, in that moment I changed to another church.

The thing is that I didn’t really feel accepted there, my story was not so easy to assimilate.  So, I never feel home there. I start with my first real girlfriend, and after her I start to don’t have a healthy Christian lifestyle. That goes to times and times, where I have not been so aligned until my 26th years old.

Feeling again that I was empty I find the way back to my old church, where I feel home. I need to confront the situation about my parents and it was not easy. But, there I found counseling with the leadership and step by step, like a baby, I broke the chains around me.

I totally broke with my old life choosing to follow Jesus 100%. And it will lead me to one big miracle. But, this is for other post, where you will know how God leaded me the motorcycle ministry (Ambassador for Jesus Christ MM) to BSSM!

Good bye from the Hamburger Jung.