A week ago, Alex and I were walking from our home to the church service, which is about a 40 minutes’ walk, when I lived this interesting moment of get to know a weakness. So, normally we have amazing people that we get rides with, but this day any of them were able to do it, so, as a pro-active person I said “Let’s go walking!”. We already come back by walk from school, I had a little bit of difficulties but, it was not something I couldn’t made, I though. 

Since first year, Alex and I became “pro” in walk, we didn’t have a car, so we walk a lot. It was also so romantic, as he always walked more than 40 minutes from his house to mine, just to visit me. I love our walks, it is a moment when we connect, talk about things with God and have fun together. But, that day wasn’t just the goods. 

– I want to share it with you because when we find a weakness our “human skills” will right the way say “hide it”, stay strong! But, my heart is saying, “when you are weak your Lord is your straight”. I don’t want to hide myself in any lie, but I want to share with you and give myself the opportunity to be none as I’m. If I have an extra goal, is to encourage you to walk in freedom in your weakness as in your straights and to don’t walk alone. –

Well, there I was, starting that nice walk with my loved husband and my baby in my womb. My back started to hurt since the first minutes, but I keep quiet, because I know how my husband cares for me and I didn’t want him to be worried. I just keep walking and thinking “I totally can do it!”. The way is not that bad, but if you know America, you know that some places are just not planned for people walk, because it is very rare someone walking, they just have cars and that’s it. 

We also have a time to be there, I was trying to walk a little bit fast to don’t lose the time, as I’m pregnant and my steps are even smaller than before. The weather wasn’t not that cold, but was so uncomfortable. I was trying to see good things in that, but my God, how was hard to find a good view though that pain. 

I usually have no problem with pain, but these back pains and difficulty in breathing have been constant, they say that it is common in pregnancy, but I never thought they were so real and bothersome. It’s simply painful!

When we were about 10 minutes from church, there was a hill. I just looked that becoming closer to us and honestly, I wasn’t able to walk anymore I found my limit, I was weak. I was trying to don’t cry of my small miserable feelings about my pain, and how limited I’m in this season, having in my mind all the promises that we received about a car and how He has been so faithful every day, so I just close my eyes for a second and taught “Thank you Lord, because I have my legs and I can walk. I’m sure that you know, if I couldn’t handle it or if this makes me sick in any way, you will come”. 

My friends, who with 28 years old will like to be so weak that couldn’t handle a 40 minutes walk to church? In that exact moment, when I said that to God, someone stopped a car and asked if we want a ride to the top of the church. 

That couple was like angels coming from heaven, the answer of my sorrow. I nor even could speak, because I was exhausted. But, I was so thankful. 

Of course, I went in church and during the service I just cried all that I was trying to handle. To depend on God means to depend on people and it sometimes is not easy, because no one have any responsibility to help you, it is just a matter of a heart. Sometimes we are not in the right spot, with the right heart and it is okay, but if no one stop to listen God? No one have the responsibility to pay the price you choose to pay for walk in supernatural. Even though, we should be a body, we still a body in construction, we will become perfect but, right now we are just in the way. 

I’m weak not just because I’m a pregnant lady with difficulties and pain, I’m weak because I’m exhausted, because the world says “you can do it”, but sometimes we can’t and you need help, you really need people. 

Sometimes we need people to help in our mind, other times in our physical needs, maybe not always is a matter of a friend, sometimes we need a professional. Sometimes you need a doctor, a psychologist. We can’t think that because we are Christians we are superheroes, because even being brave, super connected with God and all the goodness, we still human beings and our body and soul need as much care as our spirit. 

I pray for this season build in me a heart to be the answer for a world with needs. I don’t really understand how deep is my request, but if my weakness have a price that was paid with the blood of Jesus, I just can wish that it still bear a fruit that is to share His love not just for the poor, but for the ones in need.